Last day with Concen~~

Well guys.. This is it.. My very last day at Concen, tml onwards will be with another branch.. So many wonderful, terrible, horrible, sad, happy memories I'll left behind over there.. (it's not over though :>)

To all my supervisors.. Hey hey.. Let me write a short testimonial about them..
>> Juliana.. Thank you for all the help & assistance you have given me.. it's great having you as my Si-Jie and my supervisor.. Though I didn't have much opportunity to work under you.. But thankful for the time I worked with you.. Enjoy every single moment..
>> Siew Ping.. Another wonderful supervisor.. Always seen very stressful..and also loves to make me stress along.. Haha.. It's great working for you and seeing you sharing your stress load with me.. Try to smile more often, then can relieve your stress.. All the best in your studies too!!
>> Joyce.. Well didn't really have you as my supervisor until recent times.. so the only thingy I wanna thank you is on the HOURS that we spent together on NOR.. whaha.. I really learn something out of it.. Very chim.. But appreciative that you spent time out helping me.. W/o you, I think I'll be 'murdered' by my taxpayer online.. haha.. Thanks.. and oh a friendly supervisor too.. Heh.. Loves to ask me to do admin stuffs too.. whaha
>> Samantha.. She's one of my favourite supervisor.. Always getting into trouble with me whenever I find her.. Sorry for all the trouble questions I come with.. But really thankful and appreciate that I can always find solutions from you.. Don't you think I am a trouble-maker for you? haha I think so too.. See Isaac = trouble if not, double trouble.. haha
>> Hanisah.. I love your challanging approach on dealing with taxpayer.. I learn how to stay firm under your guidance and advice.. Friendly but strict when comes to applications especially on payments advices.. "Can taxpayer extend IP?" .. she reply.. "Got check class code?" oops.. haha.. My mentor in disguise.. haha
>> Wilson.. Well my 1 and only guy supervisor.. He's a friendly supervisor that always never fail to give me a smile on the face.. The word is cheerful.. Although I didn't ask you much for help.. But many thanks on information about IRAS and contributing to my knowledge about careers @ IRAS.. I'm intending to ask you out for lunch one of these days.. Don't know when only.. Haha
>> Jasmine.. Hmm.. was considering whether to write or not.. Better still well.. she's my supervisor.. so must give her credit.. Don't wat to say.. But try to smile more often!! It's make your day look brighter.. and more approachable for the TCOs.. I say no evil lorz.. :X

And so, with that I approach another new day at IRAS tml.. With new challenges ahead.. Although I really don't know much about the team.. But I pray that my team will be a "ON" team and work together towards Nation building.. And more importantly.. less office politics..

I am offically a Tax Officer with effect from 1 Aug 2006!! I got what I wanted.. Thank you God, and the many friends who pray for me.. I will continue to pray that my path will be guided in Your light.. That I may be a light that shine for You in my workplace..

IRAS, Here I come.. watch this space!!

Troubled times!?~~

Well, actually there's nothing much I wanna write here.. but like to put it down so that I won't forget them..

Ok, last nite went to celebrate Canice's bday.. Heh.. I didn't expect him to buy me a gift when I am suppose to give him one instead.. I was stunted and wat duh.. Especially when I'm the first person to be called.. Usually people remember the first and the last.. Ok but I had my fair share of fun then.. Heh.. It's been a real long time since I last attended a BBQ and be a cook!! So happy to be able to spend my WHOLE time there starting fire, cooking and eating by the fire side.. Enjoying the flamy and stars in the sky.. whaha.. along with a chilled cooling cycle home from the site.. Yeah good day but tiring..

So that's the fun part.. But here's the troubled part.. little did I realise that my mum & my bro got into another quarrel and was on cold war.. No wonder why I saw my bro today in church earlier than me but left the house later than me.. Waste $$ on taxi.. (Seriously, cab fares are real expensive after the increased.. ) -- 210m for 10cents.. peak hr -- $2.. so when you decide to book a cab, before you actually begin your journey you're already paying $4.50 to $8.50 if you decide to hire/book 1 within the CDB district.. Ok that's for cab information.. So when I went for lunch with my mom, I brought this topic out.. Then she actually started to show signs of anger when I spoke about my bro.. She did not want to tell me the story behind them..

then when I actually said this pharse " if you don't say it out, then you are carrying more emotional baggage".. Before I knew what was going to happen next,... she cried..I was so caught off-guard.. How many of you people know that Mother's tears are very precious.. This is the 2nd time I saw her did that..I felt so sorry to say those words out of my mouth.. but I know that if I don't.. that's not me..

After that, I went back back to church to consult my dad about it.. I really really thank God for giving me such a wonderful dad.. Though many times, I always argued with him.. But he always never fail to take time to lecture, to suggest, to show his concern in sometimes what we don't know or feel it then.. I am very blessed to be in such a family.. I have a wonderful role model which God has given me.. I am appreciative of that.. And I can proudly say that I love my parents; I love you mum & dad.. You're the only one in this physical world that I can turn to whenever I am feeling down or hurt.. No matter how many times I failed you, still you love me so so much.. These are words that are deeply in my heart..

There is no place in the world then home where I can hide my confidence in.. I love my family and I am proud to stay firm in troubled times.. where I will remember my family.. and of course God.. He is the center of our household.. Yeh!!

Today's speaker is good too.. He spoke of relevancy to me.. The call to persever.. How to ask for help?
1. To look into the scriptures
2. To look upward in prayer
3. To look around us with hope

And to response to problems by; -
1. Honor God
2. Reveal His Grace
3. Demonstrate His kingdom

-- Looking for God's intervention in our circumstances. Only then will we be able to learn to stand on front foot of anticipation and not the back foot of unbelief..

Ord Lorz!!~~

Heh..Heh..Heh..Guess what..My call for an answer is finally answered!! I have been offered a post as a tax officer under Electronic Interface branch for a yr!! Whaha.. God answered my prayers.. Hurray!! So happy today that I forgotten that I spent nearly 3hrs with my supervisors on a enquiry on NOR and the schemes involved..

Time to move out from HDB estates to Orchard Road.. and now.. off shore on the Cruise.. haha.. I am looking forward to a new challenge.. Yeah I'm motivated and I want to do well in it.. Pray Lord, that I will settle down comfortably in my new environment.. My new boss, my new collegaues.. and new job scope.. Ho..ho..ho.. more to come..

So continue to watch this space horz.. :D

Thank you, Jesus.. For Your love to me..
Thank you, Jesus.. For Your Grace so free..
I lift my voice to praise Your name
Praise You again and again
You are my everything
You are my Lord

Watch this space!!~~

WORK IN PROCESS.. to be continued..

Another Busy day!!~~

Hey hey.. Today is another busy day for me again.. For another expedition against the condo.. Yeah I'm back into the condo.. and also had became a MOVER for the 3rd time.. haha.. what the pok..

So many "sai kang" for me today.. From payment calls to NOAs to Dividends.. I got even scolded so many countless times by the taxpayers.. haha.. poor isaac.. All the BA students left the work.. All I handle now.. Haiz.. Still yet to complete them as they're "Shen" leh.. Put memo w/o their contact no.. I got to go through all documents, Sibel, even the Residental Address Book!! argh.. I even got to call several HR departments for their contact.. Evil man.. haha..

But here's the Good news.. Ok maybe I must thank you guys for the prayer last nite.. I got a call from my HR dept for a contract job here!! Finally, a short-listing.. Well, I'm going to continue to pray for strength.. Do continue to pray for me as my interview is on Tues, 25 July...

Hope that it will be a successful applicant.. "All things work for good for those who trust and love Him.." Rom 8:28

Back to work tml.. Here we go again.. Haha.. Despite busy/complaints.. I do really like my job now.. LOL!!~

Oh for your information.. I got my own record.. of answering only 9 calls in 7.5 hrs.. haha.. because of all the above stuffs I need to do..

Btw.. this day also marks the day that I'll miss someone too.. It's her last day at IRAS.. but I pray that we'll continue to keep in touch.. Let God decide our paths ahead.. Trust His timing..

How Big is Our God!?~~

Ok finally decided to write a word on this.. Well as I gone through bible study with Di ren, John, Si En & Samuel.. We're going through this topic about "How BIG is our God!?"

Oh by the way, we're going through this book series about worship.. which I felt it was good because it gives them ideas or guidelines how to experience true worship.. The importance of worship and the expects of worship.. Plus it also have the purpose driven factors as well as leadership opportunities to be facilitator..

But there's one thing that is disturbing me, Lord.. Is that how can someone says that he loves you.. Knowing that You are the Messiah, believes that Jesus is God.. And yet accept another faith.. Lord, You said that we should not be judgemental in our opinions.. And so this has made me speechless once again..

I pray and I seek you earnestly Lord, that You will reveal the answer to me..

(Sorry guys.. there's many things I wanna write.. But I was rather disturb by this now.. another time then.. if opportunity comes knocking again..)

Peace be with you, my fellow brothers and sisters..

Guess What!!~~

I guess it's over.. 3.25 yrs.. haha.. what a joke! Cher if you're reading this.. You'll understand what I meant by my words.. I can't believe what I see.. But sometimes you need to see to believe.. So it's a joke when you said all those words back then..

From today onwards.. I sincerely wish You all the best.. Wish you success in every little thing that You do.. And that You will always be bless & happy throughout the rest of Your life..

Farewell, and thanks for all the memories of 2005.. There will always be a place for them.. Those words left unspoken..

Good bye!! I don't love You.. 我不爱你。　　

Feeling puzzled?!!~~

Haha..well many of you might be wondering why I wrote about the drama shows I recently watched..

It's simple.. I liked the actress in the drama.. I felt that she resembles someone I like.. Since in reality I can't like her again.. So why not in lala land..

After watching the shows (intending to go for the next serial..), I felt that memories of the past just slowly creeped into my life again.. After all, it had been 10mths since I last talked to her.. And 2 years 5 mths since I last seen her.. There's so many things I wanna share with her.. So many stories I wanna tell her.. In fact, the reason why I kept this blog is that I don't wanna lose a part of my memories away again..

If time can really re-vert.. I would really wanna do it right.. There's so many things that I can do to make a difference then.. It was because of my personality and excuses.. that land me here TODAY.. But nevertheless, I never blame anyone.. and thanked God for good times.. for bad times.. for sad times..

Even now.. as I'm going through some emotional hurting again.. I thank Him for His grace so sufficient.. How can you say you love someone when you don't love yourself? It pains us to be like that.. But courage and will to live on.. Brings out the Hope & Love in you..

Never give up.. Trust in His timing..

My Secret Garden 我的秘密花園 I& II~~

耀輝失蹤後的第 836 天，小敏利用寒假的尾聲與恩恩、文靜到了澎湖遊玩， 卻因為颱風來襲，小敏獨自被困在澎湖外島，在那裡她撞見了前來躲雨的小武，小武俊美冷酷的外型，讓小敏留下了深刻的印象。

隔天好不容易回到台北的小敏，卻又立刻接到兩個讓她震撼的壞消息，第一個是由於和媽媽合資購買房子的阿姨要搬家，所以小敏必須跟恩恩、文靜在短短一天內搬家；而另一個則是媽媽決定提前退休，搬來台北與小敏同住，而為了怕無聊，臻真甚至已經租了一家店準備開咖啡館。

儘管有千百個不願意，但事情已成定局，小敏也只能接受；而在臻真一連串的面試之後，她決定錄用一名自稱殺過人，但手藝極佳的神秘男子佳源擔任廚師；佳源獨特的背景原先讓小敏等人又懼又怕，且為了證明佳源是否真如他所說曾經殺過人，古靈精怪的小敏於是帶著恩恩、文靜用了許多爆笑的方法測試佳源；最後雖然並沒有查出什麼確切的證據，卻發覺佳源其實是個外冷內熱的好人。

隨後在一次出遊，為了解救看似要自殺的麗雯，小敏失足落海，麗雯見狀非旦不感激小敏的見義勇為，反而百般嘲笑，也因此讓雙方結下樑子；出乎小敏等人意外的是，麗雯竟是班上新轉來的同學，為了相互報仇，小敏等人與麗雯都使盡渾身解術互整對方，結果是兩敗俱傷，徒留一次又一次的笑話。

而正當雙方的關係漸行惡化之際，小敏等人意外的發現麗雯的背景，原來她不但早就父母雙亡，還為了生活費必須四處打工；麗雯的處境讓小敏等人甚為同情，文靜甚至為了以往報復麗雯而使出的手段感到愧疚，於是小敏等人與麗雯化敵為友，小敏更遊說麗雯搬進家中同住。

另一方面，恩恩在無意間被彆腳星探寶生挖掘，寶生堅信恩恩是一顆會在演藝圈發光發熱的鑽石，恩恩本來沒有打算闖蕩銀河，但禁不住小敏與文靜的鼓勵，以及寶生陰魂不散、契而不捨的拜託下，懷抱著可能會在演藝圈與舊愛霍建華重逢的念頭，恩恩終於答應寶生。

豈料寶生的個性太過老實，人脈也不夠寬廣，使恩恩永遠只能接到一些可有可無的鳥通告，恩恩更是嚐盡苦頭，也因此兩人摩擦漸生，正在恩恩打算放棄之際，孝彬猶如白馬王子般的出現在恩恩面前，身為企業家第二代的孝彬非旦給予恩恩拍大型廣告的機會，更對恩恩展開熱烈的追求，孝彬的多金、溫柔和瀟灑讓恩恩非常心動，儘管孝彬花名在外，小敏、文靜與寶生都再三希望恩恩能慎重考慮；恩恩卻還是獨排眾議，決定接受孝彬。

小敏自從耀輝失蹤後，一直以畫畫當成心靈的寄託；某次當她獨自在海邊作畫時，意外的拾獲小武寫給已故女友的瓶中信，同時也發現小武在海邊獨自造船的事，好奇的小敏深入了解之後，發現小武竟跟自己同病相憐，原來小武也曾經有過一個深愛的女友，在一次意外中喪生，小武至今
還難忘女友，也因此才會經常鬱鬱寡歡；就這樣，兩人在交換彼此的心事後，漸漸成了知己。

耀輝奇蹟似的出現在小敏的面前，既驚又喜的小敏一時無法接受，於是提議雙方先有一年緩衝期，且耀輝必須完成小敏三個條件，兩人再決定是否深入交往的建議；耀輝在答應小敏之後，為了能給小敏一個美好的未來決定更努力打工，卻在打工處巧遇麗雯，天性溫柔的耀輝讓麗雯心動不已，遂對耀輝展開主動追求，小敏在獲知麗雯的舉動後原本還能輕鬆以對，可是在更深入了解之後卻發現麗雯對耀輝用情非常之深，大為詫異。

由於小敏在臻真的咖啡店打工的關係，小武偶爾也會來捧場，在一次意外的碰面，小敏竟發現佳源跟小武竟是父子！更讓小敏訝異的是父子見面的場合竟是劍拔?張，佳源對於自己荒唐的過去造成小武命運的不幸深感內疚，而小武卻絲毫不領情，夾在中間的小敏?了讓父子雙方合好做了不少努力，然而越是深入，越發現小武跟佳源之間那道裂縫，是如此的深、如此的痛…

很快的小敏的大學生涯即將畫下句點，在畢業前夕，恩恩決定繼續她的藝人生涯，小敏則是暫時的在臻真的咖啡店裡打工，而文靜很幸運的考進了一間跨國際大型汽車公司的企劃部。

剛進入這家公司的文靜很努力學習，也因為投入與執著在上司面前有過幾次不錯的表現，不料這竟也讓文靜受到其他新進同仁的忌妒，其中更以曾經是文靜小學同學的小茵為最力；表面上小茵對文靜非常友善，實際上卻在背後屢屢設計陷害文靜，也造成文靜最終被調離企劃部，降職到行銷部。 文靜對特別照顧她的上司徐強情愫漸生之時，獲知徐強已婚的事實，對於自己無意間成為第三者的文靜既煩惱又愧疚，但此時她卻又發現一個讓她詫異的事實；那就是英偉在經過長久的相處後，竟也默默的愛上了自己。

此外，小敏常將自己畫的畫掛在咖啡店裡當作擺飾，竟因此引來了一名世界知名畫家的注意，大師非常欣賞小敏，決定帶小敏到義大利深造五年，培養她成為世界級的大師，這對愛畫畫的小敏而言，母寧是一個千載難逢的好機會，恩恩、文靜與臻真更是力薦小敏不要錯過，然而小敏卻為了是否要追逐夢想離開耀輝五年，還是留在耀輝的身邊而陷入兩難…

事隔多年，小敏和她身邊的親友再度走進了生命另一座秘密花園，而這一次，她們是否能順利找到出口呢？

Answer:

直到小敏飛去法國後，耀輝才告訴英偉自己喜歡麗雯是騙小敏的。

四年很快就過去了!大家都催感情很好的英偉與文靜趕快結婚，不過文靜堅持等小敏回來再說…至於小武終於考到律師執照而遊艇也做好了，帶著心愛的女友照片出海，完成他們當初的承諾。恩恩由於演出了一部輔導金的電影被提名亞太最佳女配角，終於成為了家喻戶曉的大明星，而保生也一直陪在她身邊。至於麗雯在妹妹麗芹開刀全癒後，麗雯加入了義工行列成為世界義工的一員。源叔跟范媽媽兩人雖沒有結婚，不過大家都很羨慕他們兩人在這個年紀還能夠找到能照顧彼此的伴侶!

小敏決定一個人悄悄地回台灣。在回家的計程車上，小敏鼓起勇氣拆開耀輝在她畢業前夕寄給她的一封信。 小敏看信後感動的哭了出來，原來耀輝的信中說明，當年喜歡麗雯的表白是騙她的，目地就是希望小敏不要因為他而放棄自己的夢想，這樣做耀輝雖不知日後小敏能否回到他的身邊，但他會一直堅持等下去的…

回到家後恩恩、文靜、麗雯看到小敏回來都十分興奮。小敏想起回家路上的道路樹上都綁滿了黃絲帶，問起是不是台灣現在在流行綁黃絲帶?恩恩說想知道答案就跟她走，於是恩恩她們就開車載小敏到了有一堆綁滿黃絲帶的樹林。小敏看到耀輝在綁黃絲帶，英偉跟保生還在一旁幫忙。
保生及英偉問耀輝會不會後悔讓小敏到法國?耀輝回答如果小敏因為我而放棄自己的夢想，我才會真的後悔。站在耀輝身後的小敏聽到這樣的對話，感動的哭了，耀輝也在不經意的轉身發現小敏回來了，自己也激動的哭了。

耀輝走到小敏的面前說道：「小敏，雖然過了四年，但是我還是沒忘了那三個條件。我已經存了三百多萬了，當然也畢業了!妳說過完成前面的2個條件妳再說出第3個。小敏妳能說出第3個條件嗎?」小敏回答：「第3個條件就是從現在到以後你能一直愛著我嗎? 」

耀輝回答：「從認識妳到現在，不管妳在或不在，每分每秒，無時無刻我都一直是愛你的」話畢兩人相擁。後來小敏畫了一幅她跟耀輝兩人牽手的畫「永遠」得到世界美術新秀大賽的金牌。

Back to Work~~

Ok today is my first day officially back to IRAS.. haha it's been more than 1.5 mths since I last worked there on 17 May 06.. So so many memories there.. It all started on 7 Feb.. And now the legacy continues..

1st thing that I knew.. Was I forgot my own password.. Tried like 9+ times then finally login.. Then again forgot my login id to my call phone.. haha~~ then I realised that I again am placed in a no-man island where I am all alone again.. To myself, why me again!? Haiz.. But I guess it's ok.. I am getting used to working alone..

No more things I forgot.. but got to get used to them again.. Today, I rate my performance as below-par.. like only 33 calls!! Using softphone, I had an expectation of hitting at least 45 calls.. So there's a way more to go.. Hopefully as the days go by.. I'll improve on my language and communication skills, and tax knowledge too.. I think they're the most value things I can bring home from there..

Be grateful and thank God for everything.. I thanked Him for giving me back this job for at least these while.. And letting me understand that jealousy is only an emotion that can be overcome!! I am not alone because I got God always beside me.. I know and it's true.. I got my motivation there too.. Haha~~

So continue to keep me in your prayers.. I need them.. And may God bless the people that are reading this too.. I pray that through my own sharing, you may pick up some wonderful experience with the Almighty God above..